We can have as many do overs as we need with Jesus. It is not too late. In our brokenness, relapses, and mistakes, we say things that we do not mean. Forgiveness is for your asking and giving. Jesus is waiting to hear those words. You are not too far gone. Step out in brave faith and ask for change.
He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3
Do not risk waiting until you run out of time. Jesus is waiting for you.
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Psalm 51:10