Feelings and emotions are like gates that can stand in the way of continuing up the rough and narrow path to God if we allow it. There will be days when you are so tired you do not think you can take another step. Keep walking. A time will come when anger, bitterness, and disappointment stand in your way of advancing forward. Do not veer off of the narrow path for you will become lost, again, for the gateway to destruction beckons you in your weakest moments.
Stay the course up the next windy hill for around the bend are the gates to flowers of wisdom, fruits of stillness, and peaceful, healing waters among the loveliest trees. You see following God in this life is not how great and comfortable you feel, but rather how committed you are to Holiness.
Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. Matthew 7:13-14
When you finally make it up to the mountain of God you will be changed within. Keep going. You are strong enough to do hard things in life.